push a button
I remember one night my dad brought home steak and announced to me that I was going to eat it and he was going to watch me.
He would not take “no” for an answer.
I cried and begged him not to make me do this.
This thing sitting on my plate had become my worst enemy.
It was pure fat; one bite would ruin everything.
I had to make him understand I could not eat this and that if he really loved me, he would not make me.
I was crying, begging him to let go of this crazy idea, but he wouldn't.
He said he would sit there all night.
I had no choice, NO CHOICE!
But this was supposed to be my choice.
The one thing I had control over.
Those words pushed a button in me and I no longer cared about him or his feelings.
All I felt were anger and hate.
I hated him for making me do this, for making me feel my pain and face how distorted my reality had become.
I hated him for making me eat that disgusting, evil food.
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